Have you ever felt detached or otherwise removed from a situation? Whether it be intentional or not, that sense of being ignored can often times provoke an unwanted sadness. Lately, something has occurred on MDM, which caused me a great deal of sadness and frustration. I am, of course, speaking about the trial writers.
It has been reiterated many times that MDM is seen as a prestigious blog. And without trying to sound superior or snotty, I agree. Becoming a writer for MDM was a great honor, one that I took a bit too lightly at the time. But over my course of "employment" here, I have come to love and respect this blog far more than I could have, had I never had the opportunity to write here.
In recent events, trial writers have been accepted here at MDM. This was done without my approval or opinions. And to be quite frank, I am less than pleased. A partnership works in such a way that both parties must possess a proper balance. I do not feel as if that has been achieved between Deidra and myself. I feel as if we have different visions for the blog. And while she is carrying hers out, I am tiptoeing around her ideas, and not trying to cause a fuss.
At this point, I feel a need to take a step back. Unfortunately, MDM does not feel much like a safe haven for me any longer. It has morphed into something unfamiliar, and that in itself is all too unsettling. As sad as it makes me to bow out on such a sour note, I'm not sure where to go from here.